I miss so many people...ive kinda dissapeared for a while..its been a while..and Gods been moving...with work and school..music..i bought my ticket for cambodia..ill be goin May 17- June 9...and if a few hrs ill be leaving to Nicaragua for a week on a mission trip...I dont know when god has planned for me there...but i just need to focus..on why im going..for my heart and mind hasnt been with god as it should be..but he continues to bless me and use me..so amazing\
The Pursuit of God, by A W. Tozer
“The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing”
Before the lord god made man upon the earth. He first prepared for him by creating a world of useful and pleasant things for his sustenance and delight. In the genesis account of the creation these are called simply “things”. They were made for man’s uses, but they were meant always to be external to the man and subservient to him. In the deep heart of the man was a shine where none but god was worthy to come. Within him was god; without, a thousand gifts which god had showered upon him.
But sin has introduced complications and has made those very gifts of God a potential source of ruin to the soul.
Our woes began when god was forced out of his central shine and “Things” were allowed to enter. Within the human heart “Things” have taken over. Men have now by nature no peace within their hearts, for god is crowned there no long, but there in the moral dusk, stubborn and aggressive usurpers fight among themselves for first place on the throne.
This is not a mere metaphor, but an accurate analysis of our real spiritual trouble. There is within the human heart a tough fibrous root of fallen life whose nature is to possess, always to possess. It covets “things” with a deep and fierce passion. The pronouns “my” and “mine” look innocent enough in print, but their constant and universal use is significant. They express the real nature of the old Adamic man better than a thousand volumes of theology could do. They are verbal symptoms of our deep disease. The roots of our hearts have grown down into things, and we dare not pull up one rootlet lest we die. Things have become necessary to us, a development originally intended. God’s gifts now take the place of God, and the whole course of nature is upset by the monstrous substitution…
There can be no doubt that this possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful habits in the life. Because it is so natural, it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is; but its out workings are tragic…The ancient curse will not go our painlessly; the tough old miser within us will not lie down and die obedient to our command. He must be torn our of our heart like a plant from the soil; he must be extracted in agony and blood like a tooth from the jaw. He must be expelled from our soul by violence as Christ expelled the money changers from the temple. And we shall need to steel ourselves against his piteous begging, and to recognize it as springing our of self-pity, one of the most reprehensible sins of the human heart”
everyone be praying for me.and if you dont hear from me..just know its a long and narrow path that leads to life...and im walkin on it. | 
